Sometimes I just annoy myself with all the things I say I’m going to do but don’t. I don’t think I’m alone in this one. I think maybe lots of us do this?
Tell me it’s not just me.
And this isnt breaking commitments to others. This is me letting myself down. I’m reading a new book this week (no I haven’t finished the other 3 on my side table yet) and the author talked about this condition. How she used to do it and how she got it sorted one thing at a time.
And I just thought yes. It must make life a little less full of guilt and a bit more proactive if you don’t over commit to yourself or others and if you do the things you know will make a difference. It feels like i have a million things going on in my head for work for Neive for life. When i think about it, it’s madness that i let the same thing keep pinging around my brain taking up valuable space.
She puts it much better than me so if you have the same issue then this could be a good read for you. But basically, I’m going to really think about the things I say I’m going to do before I do them. I’m going to make sure I have time for them and that they help me reach my goals.
It just makes me feel rubbish when I have all these things hanging over me that I’m not doing but said I would.
This is my list of things as it’s stands right now, I’m going to either ditch them or make a commitment.
Start going to combat class again – No. I will at some point and I’m actually excited about doing it. But I’m in a place with work for the next 6 weeks that means I need to work some evenings. So that’s just off the list.
Design and develop DIY party boxes – I’m on this and I’m flipping excited!
Newsletter – yes, yes, yes
Drink a lot more water – No, I say I will and I don’t so I’m forgetting this one
Stop Eating Chocolate for 30 days – I’m not that fussed about Chocolate, but I have started eating it more and more (Easter was a binge fest). So, 30 days with no chocolate and I think I’ll be over it.
Get up early – I’m compromising on this. I hate being tired, so three days I week (Monday, Thursday & Friday) I will set an alarm for 6am to get up and get some work done before Neive gets up.
Plan out my weeks – I’m not terrible at this and I’m a pretty organised person (having a child who isn’t in nursery and two businesses, I have to be) but I can for sure do better at planning out my weeks and my days and I know it makes things much easier.
Spend less on the food shop – This one drives me mad. We spend way too much a week on food shopping. I think it’s going to take a while but after saying it for weeks I’m swapping who I do my online order with as of next week so that’s a step.
Organise a Big Lunch street party – This one has taken the most thought. I would love to do this but i just don’t think the time is right. I know it would end up being more work than i think it would. It makes me a bit sad and I feel a bit like I’m letting myself down, but this is a no as well.
Blog – Yes twice a week, sometimes I might do more but it’s just not realistic to keep telling myself that I will do three per week.
Videos – I love making videos, so I am going to do this! I am going to plan out a few I would like to make both for me and work and get them done in the next two weeks.
Find and read a parenting book – I’m looking for a book that give me some tools for dealing with Neive’s more annoying / hard / stressful times. Something quite calm and mindful. This has been on my list for a while as I know I could be doing better. Tonight, I will search and order a book. (if you know any good ones let me know).
Well, that was petty therapeutic. I’m going to print this list out and pop it on the wall.
Does anyone have these issues and what do you do to ensure you keep on top of yourself?
Ellie x